sweet sweet love III

ok, back to where we left off.  so i was not sad about the jared situation at all, only that i had screwed up my opportunity with kylie.  i talked to kolby about it at school and he told me to just keep trying.  kolby had let me listen to kylie's new cd(the one he recently recorded) and i was BLOWN away.  it didn't even sound like the same band.  it was SO good.  since kylie wouldn't speak to me, i felt this was a good oppurtunity to send him an email.  so i emailed him and told him how impressed i was with the new fingerprints ep and that i just couldn't believe how amazing it sounded.  i went on for a little bit then said hope you are well-maggie.  i can't really remember, but i don't think he emailed me back.  but kolby said to be persistant, so i did.  i went over after school or something and it was only kylie, kolby and their parents.  not the group of friends i had thought there would be.  so it was kind of awkward.  kylie and kolby were playing a video game in kolby's room so i sat down on the bed next to kylie.  he wouldn't even acknowledge me!  kolby had a phone call so it was only me and mr. not so happy to see me.  i tried to talk to him a little bit and again tell him how good his cd was, but then he was wanted on the phone. kolby came back and i told him about my failed attempt.  again he said not to give up.  so i went home and this is where it kind of gets blurry...i think at this point we are now in the new year(2005) i really don't know if kylie was talking to me very much, maybe but only keeping it short.  but i continued hanging out there, because well all my friends did and i still liked him.  so one weekend a group of us were headed down to jerseyville to stay with other friends. kylie some how got stuck in the back seat with me. about half way through the ride i guess he couldn't take it anymore and grabbed my hand. CHA CHING i was back in! :) we had a great trip and when we got back and in a private setting we talked about what had happened.  he had liked me all along but wanted to make me feel bad and guilty for what i had done, which was totally fair.  so kylie and i continued our hand holding.  we weren't officially dating and we were always on again off again. mostly because i was scared to commit to him again and fears of breaking up.  i was happy where we were, but then kylie told me it was my last chance.  so i jumped on board! in march of 2005, we were a couple and this is when my life began to change...